Experiencing more pain recently than ever…

Jul13

Recently I have been feeling very tired and experiencing a lot of tightness in my muscles, especially in my calves because of the way I walk. About a year ago, I had the same problem so I went to physio and I was told to do some stretches everyday in order for my muscles to grow properly (as my body was growing, but not my calf muscles). To be honest, I started doing them everyday for a few weeks, but it came to a point where I either forgot or was too tired and not bothered to do them. After a month or so, I was fine and wasn’t experiencing any pain…

However, several months ago my CP really started to annoy me. My right leg (weak side) was really hurting and so it limited me from doing what I wanted to do. I had to lie down and ‘massage’ my leg as it wouldn’t go away. I’ve also been feeling incredibly tired and found it hard to make it through a day without taking a nap – I never used to take naps when I was younger! This got me thinking, will everyday tasks get harder with age? Will I be experiencing more pain as I get older?

Only after walking a fairly short distance, which caused no pain before, I now feel really lethargic and my right leg just sort of ‘gives up’ on me. However, I always try to ignore the pain and carry on.

But, after a few days, I can’t take the pain anymore! I get mad to think that I’m always so tired and I have no energy as well as sad to think that I am limited and restricted to things that I would like to do – if this is now, how will I be in thirty or forty years time?

4 thoughts on “Experiencing more pain recently than ever…”

  1. Oh my gosh I can relate to this so much! I’ve been struggling a lot more over the last couple of years. I’ve never been one for naps before now, but these days if I get up early I end up napping and I can still sometimes nap if I’ve slept for 12 hours. I’m fighting the urge to nap now actually. Admittedly some of that could be down to the antidepressants I’m on.

    Journeys that I used to be able to walk quite comfortably are getting harder.

    Thanks so much for writing this!

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  2. I know it’s really easy to get scared about the future thinking “If this is what I’m like now…” You could drive yourself mad with worry thinking like that though, so I guess it’s best to just take it one day at a time. I have no idea about the pain that CP causes but I can relate to the fatigue and other things getting worse than they were say, five years ago. I hope you have some good days very soon x

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