Two years ago I had many doubts about studying French at uni – even though it was my favorite subject. All these negative thoughts kept popping up and I was going through a hard time when it came to the oral component.
So I started seeing a speech therapist again to help me get through this barrier. We were working on the oral every week, building up towards the exam. This caused me so much stress that I decided I wasn’t going to do French and turned towards psychology.
But my teacher wasn’t happy with this. She spoke to me individually trying to change my mind. And the tears just didn’t stop… I thought it would be impossible to do it! She helped me see that uni could put special arrangements in place and that it could be done.
I always knew it would be a challenge but with the support of my family and professionals, I was determined to give it a go.
So here I am in my second year, planning to study abroad in April and to work in France next academic year – who would’ve thought of that! I’ve done many orals (in front of the class too) and each time they are getting much better 😃. Today I just did my interview simulation assessment for which I was very confident and my lecturer was pleased with the outcome.
My aim is to keep working at it to become better and boost my confidence.
Never let anything stop you from doing what you want, you never know how much you can achieve!
So glad to be where I am now, I’ve accomplished so much academically 😊 I am also very lucky to have extremely supportive and understanding lecturers who are willing to do anything to help me.
I am glad to say that this second year at university is going extremely well compared to last year. Honestly, I was unsure whether or not I should return to university after my horrible experience last year…
But I took on the challenge! I am feeling a lot better in terms of pain and yes, there might be occasional pains here and there – after all I do have chronic pain – but I’ve learned how to cope with them. My hot water bottle is always by my side 🙂 …
I guess it’s something that you just learn to live with as time progresses.
However, today my fingers are in a lot of pain, they feel so stiff and I don’t know how to get them to relax. I’ve tried putting them in hot water for a while but they still feel the same. It’s so annoying, especially when I need to write – university notes!
Hoping it will get off soon!
Everyday is a struggle. For over a year, I’ve been having pains everywhere; lower back, legs, arms, feet and even fingers. I wake up in pain and go to sleep in pain. I’m sick and tired of it 😦
I have been to physio and taken painkillers but they don’t seem to work 😦 So I went to the doctors again but was told that there is nothing they can do. This was so hard on me . I am feeling very low and miserable. I have no energy and feel very tired all the time – I just lie in bed all day.
I don’t know what to do anymore! I would really appreciate it if anyone could give me any tips. How do you cope with your pain, if you have any?
I find it hard to believe that I am already in my last year and planning to go to university next year.
It’s been a tough couple of weeks full of big decisions about which uni to go to, what course etc. I had originally decided on my chosen course in summer but lots of things occurred which led me to confusion. Due to my CP, I began to doubt myself by thinking that I couldn’t do a French degree just because I speak a little different to everybody else. I was torn down because of this as I have loved the French language ever since I started studying it.
I thought that this was impossible and that I would have to give up my dream and go in another direction…
BUT. I was not alone. Thanks to my parents, teachers and speech therapist, I managed to get back on track with a positive attitude and focus on achieving my dream – to study french at uni!
They helped me see that unfortunately some people have to work harder than others … but it’s ok. This is my life and I cannot change it so the only way forward is HARD WORK. I am ready to take on this challenge and will work hard to achieve my goal. I won’t give up. I won’t let CP stop me from doing what I want to do in life.
Scotland! Been looking forward to it all year round. Well, it came and went ever so quickly 😦
It turned out to be one of the most ‘hectic’ holidays for me (it was great though!) as my leg decided to start hurting the moment we arrived. We were fully booked with tours, site seeing, long walks in order to get the best out of Scotland during the few days that we were there. I kept trying to motivate myself by being positive and reminding myself that exercise is good for me and it will only make me stronger. Everyday seemed like a struggle, but you get the best feeling ever when you’ve made it through the day that you thought you couldn’t. The weather didn’t help either; as most of the time it was raining and really cold.
I was quite proud of myself for not giving up and pushing myself whenever I felt like stopping. I even surprised myself as I climbed up the famous ‘King Arthur’s Seat’ which required a lot of effort and caused my legs and now hip to ache a lot- nonetheless, I continued until the highest point and back down again. I felt so relieved when I took the last step down and so happy to think that ‘I did it!’ 😀
Despite my pains, I absolutely loved Scotland as it had wonderful sceneries and incredibly beautiful highlands! So much so that I didn’t want to come home. It was an unforgettable holiday – if we leave the pain to one side.
Recently I have been feeling very tired and experiencing a lot of tightness in my muscles, especially in my calves because of the way I walk. About a year ago, I had the same problem so I went to physio and I was told to do some stretches everyday in order for my muscles to grow properly (as my body was growing, but not my calf muscles). To be honest, I started doing them everyday for a few weeks, but it came to a point where I either forgot or was too tired and not bothered to do them. After a month or so, I was fine and wasn’t experiencing any pain…
However, several months ago my CP really started to annoy me. My right leg (weak side) was really hurting and so it limited me from doing what I wanted to do. I had to lie down and ‘massage’ my leg as it wouldn’t go away. I’ve also been feeling incredibly tired and found it hard to make it through a day without taking a nap – I never used to take naps when I was younger! This got me thinking, will everyday tasks get harder with age? Will I be experiencing more pain as I get older?
Only after walking a fairly short distance, which caused no pain before, I now feel really lethargic and my right leg just sort of ‘gives up’ on me. However, I always try to ignore the pain and carry on.
But, after a few days, I can’t take the pain anymore! I get mad to think that I’m always so tired and I have no energy as well as sad to think that I am limited and restricted to things that I would like to do – if this is now, how will I be in thirty or forty years time?
At the beginning of this year, I felt like my life was falling apart; I felt very lonely, useless, extremely sad and my head was full of negativity – I couldn’t find positivity in anything! After keeping it in, faking a smile and holding my tears back for quite a while, so as not to make my family worried, I finally had to spit it out – I just couldn’t hold it back anymore. I told my mum one night, while in tears 😥 – she could tell that something was wrong as I was very anxious and very jumpy (not like myself!) – and she kept on telling me how there are worse things in life than cp and how people with disabilities can be whoever they want to be if they set their mind to it. She then told me to focus on the things that I am good at and push the things I couldn’t do aside.
After a couple of days I was still the same – my mum didn’t know what to do with me anymore. So, she called one of therapists, who said that I could contact her whenever I had any problems. My mum booked an appointment for us to have a little chat with my therapist and to see if she could do anything to help me. And she definitely did! She told me to look online and join CP Teens UK chat, where I will find many people with cerebral palsy sharing experiences and making friends. So that’s what I did – and i have to say, I recommend it to anyone with cp, because it’s just an amazing and friendly community where you don’t feel alone anymore.
Personally, I’m incredibly happy to be a part of this amazing community as I have had the opportunity to share my experiences with people with the same condition. I would also like to thank the members of the group who made me feel welcome and supported! If it wasn’t for social networking sites, e.g. FB, I would not be as confident as I am now and as happy as I am now. Therefore, I would like to say a massive thank you to my mum for her endless support and also to social networking sites and the members of CP Teens UK chat – you have definitely changed my perspective of living with a disability.
Thank you for changing my view of life!