Happy cerebral palsy awareness day to everyone with CP out there! This is the day when we should all reflect back on our lives and see how far we’ve come despite the struggles we face. A year ago, I would never have thought I’d be so happy as I am now. CP has made me a stronger person, who had to fight and never give up to achieve her dreams. I am extremely grateful to everyone who has helped me along my journey – pushing me along to watch me succeed. Last year I was hating myself for being different and not being able to do things that others could do, I wished I didn’t have CP.
However, today I am a completely different person as I’ve realised that being different is great – it makes us unique. It has made me grateful for all the little things in life. Recently I gave a short speech about myself in school for them to see that nothing is impossible and if they really want to do something they can. A disability doesn’t stop you!
This year has been great-I have met new, amazing friends, one of which also has cerebral palsy. She is an amazing, strong and determined woman who is always willing to achieve her goals and help others. She’s inspired me, helped me accept myself and taught me how to love myself! Thanks to her, I have now become more open about my disability and won’t let it hold me back! It feels amazing to have someone that is like you, someone who you feel comfortable with and who you can be yourself with. If it wasn’t for my friends who accept me no matter what, I don’t where I’d be now. This is the best thing that has ever happened to me and I thank them for that.
My message to all of you is if you believe you can achieve. Writing these blogs has helped me believe in myself, connect with people in a similar situation and be more open about the difficulties that I face because of CP. But, despite my difficulties, I still get through and manage to achieve great things. My life has been full of obstacles but they have made me the woman I am today!
We are able to do so much – even if we don’t think so, let’s continue fighting and working hard for success!
Happy CP Awareness Day! I am so grateful for all my supporters!! Hope you all have a great Easter xx
About a month ago I was told I had social anxiety and it is clearly caused by my mild cerebral palsy. As my cp affects my speech slightly, among other things – such as my startle reflex and my poor motor skills, I was constantly stared at and sometimes made fun of. I will always remember this young girl who was about 4 or 5 at that time, I must have been 8. Anyway, we were at the beach and she overheard me while I was talking to my cousin. “She talks weird” was what she told my cousin when I was RIGHT BESIDE her. I had to keep it in at the time and deal with it. However, these words really tear my heart apart as there is nothing I can do about the way I speak – although when I was younger my speech was worse.
At the beginning of this year was when all those ‘saddening’ memories came back. I sat alone in my room and cried my heart out – wishing I could speak like other people and why I spoke differently. Here, I wished I never had cp and was constantly asking myself the question ‘why me?’ I even had extreme thoughts of which I would never have thought of before this. You can probably figure it out! Thankfully, my mum noticed early enough to get me some help.
I was offered the opportunity to see a psychologist – at the beginning I was worried about going as I didn’t know what to expect. My first appointment was a little awkward as I wasn’t quite familiar with the situation and I couldn’t express all my feelings openly yet. However, appointment after appointment I became much more open with my therapist as I knew that all she wanted to do was help me – and was not going to judge in any way. After sharing my thoughts and worries, she came to the conclusion that I have social anxiety.
This is true as I am incredibly self-conscious everywhere I go. When I am in a big group of people and asked a question, I instantly sweat, my body goes all shaky and I choke on my words – with the addition of the ’embarrassing’ unwanted actions that cp brings. This makes me feel weak and intimidated by society as I can’t control the way my body moves – as much as I want to. In order to avoid these social situations, I tend to hide away in my room, but I am working towards getting rid of that anxiety and shyness together with my therapist.
I am so glad I made this step in my life because, slowly, I am overcoming my social anxiety. If I hadn’t gone, I would have been stuck in my house all day and would have never had the courage to expose myself to society, Thanks to the support of my psychologist among many other people, I am slowly beginning to accept myself for who I am and view life with a positive perspective – some days more than others, but hopefully I’ll get through it!